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It’s been eight-days since my last post. Things have happened since then– here’s the recap:

  • Last week was fairly uneventful. I went to work, came home, watched a lot of Netflix, then did it all over again.
  • Friday night, I went over to a friend’s house. We had a few beers and spent the evening talking about life’s frustrations. I haven’t stayed up all night talking in a very long time.
  • My Memorial Day weekend was spent with my family in Butte. It was nice to hang out with my grandparents, aunts, and my parents for a bit. There’s definitely a generational gap (and I was the only one under 40-years-old in the group), but we had a good time.

I’m still looking for more out of my life. The routine is getting boring; I crave excitement. I’ll be on vacation next week, and I’m hoping some time away from work will be refreshing.

Until then,

- Will

The Lonely Club’s Day Off

Today was a waste.

I watched a ton of ’80s movies for the first time (The Breakfast Club, Ferris Bueller’s Day Off, and St. Elmo’s Fire). None of them were particularly great, but they also weren’t terrible. I was expecting more from these movies. Cult classics usually have more to offer (see Fight ClubKill Bill, and/or Office Space and you’ll understand what I mean by “more to offer”). These movies have scenes and characters that are iconic in pop culture, but the storylines themselves aren’t particularly special. Perhaps the evolution of storytelling over the past few decades has raised the bar for exceptional movies, and these classics can’t really compete, or maybe I’m just no longer in the target demo.

If I watched these movies while I was in high school, I probably would have loved them. The exaggerated drama and emotion, the commentary on the social castes in the high school environment, and the dumb acts of rebellion would have been right up my alley (it’s the only logical explanation for why I loved the US/MTV version of Skins so much). Sex, smoking, drinking, and other “adult” activities that are generally forbidden fruits for teens are alluring when you’re in high school. When you’re finally old enough to do these things legally, the novelty is lost.

Suddenly, smoking cigars in the parking lot isn’t cool anymore.

St. Elmo’s Fire did capture the experience of the gradual decline of friendships after graduation quite well. Time, distance, work, and growing up throw a wedge between friends. It’s sad, and it sucks, but it’s a part of life. It doesn’t get easier though.

As an inhabitant of a recently deserted apartment, I’ve been feeling pretty lonely. Stories about people drifting apart aren’t making me feel better, oddly enough.

It’s 1:35 AM. I should get to bed.

- Will

Stasis

Wake up. Eat breakfast. Watch House. Eat lunch. Go to work. Come home. Eat dinner. Watch House. Go to bed. Do it again the next day, and the next, and the next….

It feels like my life is stuck on repeat. Living alone in a town where most of your friends are either busy or living somewhere else sucks.

I have no idea how to get out of this rut. I don’t know how to meet new people. I’m stuck. I’m alone. I’m bored.

I tried to mix things up today. Despite a late start, I went up to Hyalite for a photo shoot. It started raining halfway up to the lake. One I arrived at the lake, I discovered that it was still frozen, and most of the surrounding area was still covered in snow. Disheartened, I drove back down to town, bought a couple of things at the store, and then went back home to watch movies on Netflix.

I need a change.

- Will

….and we’re back. (again.)

Hey, Internet! It’s been awhile. How’ve you been?

Summer 2014 is officially here, and TFS is back for another three-months. If I’ve learned anything from the past three-attempts at a reboot, it is to keep my goals for this project extremely modest. Daily posts are difficult to keep up with, and it’s almost impossible to produce consistently interesting content on a daily basis. I will do my best to post regularly and consistently this time around. As I get back to the project, bear with me; it’ll take a couple of days to adjust to posting on here regularly, and I’ll also try to find the best time of day to post. After I work the initial kinks out, I’ll focus more on the content.

Now that the boring and lame introductory paragraph is behind us, here’s a brief recap of what’s happened since last summer:

  • I’m still working at the hardware store. I’m beginning to grow tired of the evening shifts, and the summer workload is just as bad as last year. My boss will soon be leaving for a “real” job (he recently graduated from MSU), and I’m currently in the best position to be his replacement. I’m not sure if I want the job, but I could use the extra money. My boss doesn’t have any solid plans as to when he’ll be leaving yet, so we’ll have to see what happens as the summer progresses.
  • I’m single. I have been since last September. (Last September was an especially shitty month for me; I totaled the Focus the day after my birthday, and I got dumped a week after that.) I’m trying to focus less on romance, and more on personal improvement.
  • My living situation this summer is much better than last summer. While I loved my old roommate, we had different lifestyle habits that didn’t mesh well. My new roommates and I get along great, and the past several months have been awesome; both of them are currently back in Billings for the summer though, so the apartment is empty. It’s pretty lonely, but I don’t have to worry about waking anyone up if I stay up late. I can also play my music loud and walk around my apartment in my underwear if I want, so it could be worse.
  • I’m back in school again, and it feels great. It’s nice to be working toward a solid, long-term goal again. I’m majoring in biochemistry again, and while that might seem silly, I really think it’s the best fit for me. I also have a clearly-defined goal to keep me motivated this time around. I’m trying to take a class during the summer session, but I still need to work out the details with my adviser. I’ll let you know what happens with that later.

I’ve met a few new people over the last year, but Bozeman still feels deserted during the summer. I really want this summer to be different though, so I’m going to try and get out more often, and hopefully meet new friends. My time as a lonely guy who stays at home and watches too much TV is done. It’s time to get out, live life to the fullest, and finally defeat boredom.

May we all be victorious against that bastard.

- Will

A Tale of Two Jobs

The past few days have left me tired, stressed, and generally worn out. Although I haven’t had to work a lot of hours at my new job so far, the mix of waking up early for the merchandising job and staying up late for the hardware store job is beginning to take it’s toll. I’ve been substituting energy drinks for sleep, and it’s just not the same. I miss my pillow time.

Despite feeling exhausted from a lack of sleep, I definitely feel like juggling these two jobs is more than doable; it almost feels natural. I go to the merchandising job in the morning, take a break for a few hours, then go to work at the hardware store at night. It almost feels like I’m going to school still, but I’m getting paid for being awake at an early hour (which makes getting out of bed a little easier). I’m looking forward to the fruits of this extra labor; I get paid on Friday, and it’ll be nice to have a little money after being essentially broke for two-weeks.

If I had to make a comment on how things were going at this present moment, I would say that life is good.

The only somewhat disconcerting issue on the horizon is my future living situation. A few friends and I applied for a really nice apartment last week, and everything went through OK for the most part, except for one of the cosigners. So now I’m just waiting for this guy to find another cosigner (which he’s done), and turn in another cosigner application (which he won’t be doing ’til Friday).

I’m not too worried that this cosigner will also fail– I’m just anxious to be finished with the whole process of moving. This new apartment is a huge upgrade from the one I’m currently in, and I’m ready to reap the benefits of it now! (haha) Additionally, moving is just generally stressful, and it’s something I would like to finish soon so that I won’t have to deal with it for at least another 12 months or so.

That’s all I’ve got for the past few days… I did go on a hike to Hyalite on Sunday, but I’m far too tired to upload pictures right now.

Until next time,

- Will

Work, Work, Camping, Work

In the ten-days that have passed since my last post, I have been very busy.

I’ve been working more at my hardware-store job, and I just started working at my new merchandising job this week. Last weekend, I went on a backpacking/camping trip to Mystic lake with Elijah, Katherine (Elijah’s girlfriend), and Sara. And in between all of that, I’ve been either sleeping, watching episodes of Adventure Time or Regular Show, or calling people about the apartment I’m planning to move-in to in August.

Arguably, there was probably fifteen-minutes or so in the midst of all that stuff that I probably could have used to update this blog, but alas, I did not.

Anyway, I’ll dive into some more specific details about the stuff I mentioned earlier now:

  • Backpacking to Mystic Lake was a really fun and awesome experience. It was my first backpacking trip, and it was my first time camping in a couple of years. I definitely appreciate how difficult it is to chop wood with a semi-dull hatchet (and basically zero prior firewood chopping experience)– it was definitely more difficult than I anticipated. Despite my laughable attempts at gathering firewood, we still managed to have a decent campfire, and we had a fun time in the great outdoors. Hopefully I’ll get a chance to go backpacking again soon.
  • My new merchandising job has been really awesome so far. While the online computer training is about as exciting as any other online computer training I’ve done for every other retail job I’ve had (translation: it was incredibly boring), the other aspects of the job have been great. This job has a lot of perks and privileges that I’ve never had with any of my past jobs, and a lot more personal responsibility, but I like it so far. I went on my first “real” day of work today (nobody else was there to supervise me or guide me), and it went well. The work is pretty easy, and somewhat mundane, but it’s fast-paced enough to keep me from getting too bored. It sounds like I’m going to be doing some traveling for this job as well, which I’m kind of looking forward to, and also dreading at the same time. I love the idea of being paid to drive places; I hate the idea of how much of my free-time that might consume.
  • The home-improvement store job has been giving me more hours lately, which is great because I need the money so that I can move into my apartment (in addition to various other expenses– like rent for my current apartment). However, it also puts more pressure on me to develop some sort of a time management system, because my free time outside of work is being compressed between both jobs. I might buy a planner of some sort after I get my paycheck next week… that would definitely help.

That’s basically all that’s been going on since my last post. I’ll try to post another update soon (maybe with some pictures from the backpacking trip?)– but no promises!

Until next time,

- Will

Post #100:

Before I dive into another “exciting” post about what’s happening in my life, I would like to take a moment to acknowledge the very minute accomplishment of reaching 100-posts on this blog. It’s taken a few years to reach, but I’ve finally hit 100-posts on here. (Wow. That is a lot of time wasted WELL SPENT.) Thank you for reading this blog, and I hope you stick around for (hopefully!) the next 100 posts.

I’m beginning to fall back into the cycle of sleeping until the afternoon, wasting time until I have to go to work, working for a number of hours, and going to bed late.

It is an incredibly boring cycle to be in, folks. (I miss my friends; they gave me the motivation to get up and actually DO something.)

Fortunately, the day was not a total waste. I contacted the recruiter for the new job I’ll be starting next week, and I scheduled my pre-employment drug screening for tomorrow. (There’s nothing quite as fun as peeing in a cup at a clinic, guys.) I also got all of my tax-stuff for my job filled out, and I’m basically all set to start my new job. I just need to pick up a new pair of khakis and some dress shoes, and then I’ll be good to go.

I’m very excited to start this job simply because it will be something new and different. While I appreciate my other job (I’ll call it “Job #1″ from now on, and I’ll refer to the new job as “Job #2″ to prevent confusion), it is incredibly boring and somewhat frustrating. I’m hoping that this new job will bring an end to this boring cycle that I’ve been stuck in, and hopefully spark some motivation to do new things (like read, work out, and write regularly).

I’m also hoping that it will encourage me to begin organizing my life, and schedule everything out. One of the biggest difficulties I faced in school this year was a lack of organization, which caused me to start on assignments late, study for tests and quizzes at the last minute, and even miss a few online assignments. Juggling two jobs will require me to maintain some sort of organizational skills– I’m just hoping that they crossover to my academic life.

Anyway, I should probably be heading to bed (it is 4:30 in the morning; I should have been in bed hours ago). Stay tuned for another post in the near future!

- Will

P.S. By “near future” I mean sometime later this week. I’m trying to keep my writing goals modest as I come back to writing on this blog regularly, so I don’t want to make any promises about writing a post tomorrow. So while that does mean that a post could be on here tomorrow, it doesn’t necessarily mean that there will be a post here tomorrow. I will definitely have at least ONE new post on here by Friday though, so tune in sometime between now and then if you want to stay current with the blog. Alternatively, you can subscribe/follow this blog (to subscribe to this blog, scroll to the bottom of the page and enter your e-mail address in the form underneath the box that says “Subscribe”) to stay updated on when new posts are posted onto this blog. (I really hope this didn’t confuse you, but if it did, please let me know in the comments section below, and I will answer any questions you have. Thanks!)

The Writer Returns…

I’ve been away from this blog for nearly three-weeks. It would be pretty dumb to simply state that things have happened while I was away, so I’m going to avoid doing that.

Before I dive into a summary of what’s happened while I was absent, I would like to take a moment to discuss the blog’s format. At the beginning of this summer, I wanted to return to the original spirit of this blog by writing at least one post everyday for the entire summer. And while that was a great idea at the start, its become quite apparent that I will not be able to keep up with that goal. Life is too busy, stressful, and boring at the moment to maintain that format. Despite giving up on that goal, I would like to begin updating this blog regularly again. I plan to post on this blog at least two-times per week; this will keep new content coming in, and it’s a reasonable workload to maintain. Hopefully I’ll keep up my part of the bargain by remembering to post on here.

Now that I’ve gotten the boring format stuff out of the way, let’s dive into what happened while I was away…

Since my last post, I’ve gotten another job, took a week off from work to spend time with some close friends, and I ran over a cone with a truck at a job interview. In other words, I’ve been busy.

I recently was hired for a merchandising job at a large retail merchandising company. This position pays more than my current job, but I won’t be getting as many hours. With that being said, I do not plan to quit my current job; I plan to work at both jobs. I don’t start working at this job for another week, but I’m extremely excited to start. I’m excited to start earning more money, and I’m looking forward to the new experience that will come with this job.

Despite picking up a second job, my parents continue to harass me about getting a different job that will pay more money in some sort of seasonal field, like forest-firefighting. What my mother fails to recognize is that many of these high-paying seasonal jobs require previous experience in that field, and/or a trade-based skill that requires years of experience or some sort of vocational schooling.

My attempts to explain the difficulties involved with obtaining one of these jobs to my mother is a waste of time, and it only leads to arguments and nasty comments. I honestly wish there was a simple way to explain to my mom that quitting two jobs that will provide me steady, livable, year-round income in favor of a seasonal job (that may or may not be high-paying) simply does not make sense. If you want to keep a fire burning over a long period of time, you don’t just buy a gallon of gasoline and some lighter fluid and hope for the best; following the same logic, I’m not going to throw away two jobs with steady income in favor of one temporary, high-paying job. It just doesn’t make sense.

In addition to disappointing my parents by not picking up some high-paying job out of thin air, I took a week off from work to spend time with a few friends. Kelci took a week off to visit Ryan and me in Bozeman, and Sara also came up for the week. It was nice to spend time with them, and we had a really awesome week. I’ll definitely feel the pinch on my next paycheck,  but I don’t care; spending time with my closest friends is worth a little starvation (haha).

Oh, and I had an interview for a shitty satellite company job last week. It was a trainwreck. I had trouble finding the place and ended up being nearly ten-minutes late. The guy who interviewed me was a complete asshole, and he had the most horrendous unibrow I’ve ever seen. The interview started with a confined-spaces driving test, and involved driving a pickup truck in an S-formation around some cones. You had to drive forward through the S-curve without backing up, and then drive in reverse through the S-curve without driving forward. Simple, right?

I got through the forward-driving part of the test just fine; I totally nailed a cone on the driving in a reverse portion of the test because I swung too wide on the second turn.

Yes, I freely admit that I fucked up that test. However, I think it’s stupid that you aren’t allowed to drive forward to adjust your position, as this is a constraint that doesn’t apply in the real-world.

Also, I need to get more experience backing up a pickup truck, because I’m too used to driving my nimble compact-car.

That’s all I’ve got. I’ll write another post soon (hopefully!). Later.

- Will

I’ve been away from the blog for a few days– yes, I know that’s not how this is supposed to be going, but life is weird. Anyway, I’m going to post a proper update on stuff that happened while I was away later; right now, I need to vent about boring and frustrating work stuff.

I work at a large retail store in the freight department, and recently we’ve been receiving more product than usual due to a seasonal increase in customers.

While the amount of work has increased, the amount of working hours available for my department have not– in fact, my hours have been lower than usual.

So, instead giving the already trained and seasoned associates who have open availability more hours, they’ve decided to hire two new part time associates.

Yes, they would rather spend more money to train new people than reward their loyal, hardworking associates with more hours.

I could understand if we were all full-time, and more hours would mean that we would be getting overtime, but that is not the case– everyone is part-time. Why not bump us up to full-time for the season?

Because logic does not apply here, apparently.

Time to get a new job.

Later.
- Will

Lazy Days, Restless Nights

Visiting Billings is weird for a number of reasons, but the one that always sticks out is how much hasn’t changed since I left here two years ago.

New buildings have been built in places that were empty fields a few years ago, new people hang out in the places that I used to haunt in high school, and few of my friends still live here. But virtually everything else has stayed the same, and that is what shocks me the most.

It’s like walking into the past, but the things you cared about the most in the past have changed; the only thing that stayed the same was the scenery.

I miss being able to call my friends up and meet them somewhere, and then just go out and do something– you know, the kinds of things that are easy when you live in the same town.

That doesn’t happen anymore, unless we’re all in town for a holiday or some other rare event, and it sucks.

Today was a day that brought that knowledge back to the front of my mind as I spent most of the day bored at my parents’ house. I did some chores to help out, I ran an errand for my dad, and I watched some cable TV (a luxury I don’t have back at my apartment). And while that wasn’t the worst way to spend a day, it definitely wasn’t the best way.

Tonight should be different though, as I’ve made plans to spend time with the few friends that still live here. Hopefully we’ll tear up the town like we used to back in the day.

I’m bringing my camera out with me, so maybe I’ll post some shots of what happened later. Stay tuned.

- Will

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