It’s been eight-days since my last post. Things have happened since then– here’s the recap:
- Last week was fairly uneventful. I went to work, came home, watched a lot of Netflix, then did it all over again.
- Friday night, I went over to a friend’s house. We had a few beers and spent the evening talking about life’s frustrations. I haven’t stayed up all night talking in a very long time.
- My Memorial Day weekend was spent with my family in Butte. It was nice to hang out with my grandparents, aunts, and my parents for a bit. There’s definitely a generational gap (and I was the only one under 40-years-old in the group), but we had a good time.
I’m still looking for more out of my life. The routine is getting boring; I crave excitement. I’ll be on vacation next week, and I’m hoping some time away from work will be refreshing.
Today was a waste.
I watched a ton of ’80s movies for the first time (The Breakfast Club, Ferris Bueller’s Day Off, and St. Elmo’s Fire). None of them were particularly great, but they also weren’t terrible. I was expecting more from these movies. Cult classics usually have more to offer (see Fight Club, Kill Bill, and/or Office Space and you’ll understand what I mean by “more to offer”). These movies have scenes and characters that are iconic in pop culture, but the storylines themselves aren’t particularly special. Perhaps the evolution of storytelling over the past few decades has raised the bar for exceptional movies, and these classics can’t really compete, or maybe I’m just no longer in the target demo.
If I watched these movies while I was in high school, I probably would have loved them. The exaggerated drama and emotion, the commentary on the social castes in the high school environment, and the dumb acts of rebellion would have been right up my alley (it’s the only logical explanation for why I loved the US/MTV version of Skins so much). Sex, smoking, drinking, and other “adult” activities that are generally forbidden fruits for teens are alluring when you’re in high school. When you’re finally old enough to do these things legally, the novelty is lost.
Suddenly, smoking cigars in the parking lot isn’t cool anymore.
St. Elmo’s Fire did capture the experience of the gradual decline of friendships after graduation quite well. Time, distance, work, and growing up throw a wedge between friends. It’s sad, and it sucks, but it’s a part of life. It doesn’t get easier though.
As an inhabitant of a recently deserted apartment, I’ve been feeling pretty lonely. Stories about people drifting apart aren’t making me feel better, oddly enough.
It’s 1:35 AM. I should get to bed.
Wake up. Eat breakfast. Watch House. Eat lunch. Go to work. Come home. Eat dinner. Watch House. Go to bed. Do it again the next day, and the next, and the next….
It feels like my life is stuck on repeat. Living alone in a town where most of your friends are either busy or living somewhere else sucks.
I have no idea how to get out of this rut. I don’t know how to meet new people. I’m stuck. I’m alone. I’m bored.
I tried to mix things up today. Despite a late start, I went up to Hyalite for a photo shoot. It started raining halfway up to the lake. One I arrived at the lake, I discovered that it was still frozen, and most of the surrounding area was still covered in snow. Disheartened, I drove back down to town, bought a couple of things at the store, and then went back home to watch movies on Netflix.
I need a change.
Hey, Internet! It’s been awhile. How’ve you been?
Summer 2014 is officially here, and TFS is back for another three-months. If I’ve learned anything from the past three-attempts at a reboot, it is to keep my goals for this project extremely modest. Daily posts are difficult to keep up with, and it’s almost impossible to produce consistently interesting content on a daily basis. I will do my best to post regularly and consistently this time around. As I get back to the project, bear with me; it’ll take a couple of days to adjust to posting on here regularly, and I’ll also try to find the best time of day to post. After I work the initial kinks out, I’ll focus more on the content.
Now that the boring and lame introductory paragraph is behind us, here’s a brief recap of what’s happened since last summer:
- I’m still working at the hardware store. I’m beginning to grow tired of the evening shifts, and the summer workload is just as bad as last year. My boss will soon be leaving for a “real” job (he recently graduated from MSU), and I’m currently in the best position to be his replacement. I’m not sure if I want the job, but I could use the extra money. My boss doesn’t have any solid plans as to when he’ll be leaving yet, so we’ll have to see what happens as the summer progresses.
- I’m single. I have been since last September. (Last September was an especially shitty month for me; I totaled the Focus the day after my birthday, and I got dumped a week after that.) I’m trying to focus less on romance, and more on personal improvement.
- My living situation this summer is much better than last summer. While I loved my old roommate, we had different lifestyle habits that didn’t mesh well. My new roommates and I get along great, and the past several months have been awesome; both of them are currently back in Billings for the summer though, so the apartment is empty. It’s pretty lonely, but I don’t have to worry about waking anyone up if I stay up late. I can also play my music loud and walk around my apartment in my underwear if I want, so it could be worse.
- I’m back in school again, and it feels great. It’s nice to be working toward a solid, long-term goal again. I’m majoring in biochemistry again, and while that might seem silly, I really think it’s the best fit for me. I also have a clearly-defined goal to keep me motivated this time around. I’m trying to take a class during the summer session, but I still need to work out the details with my adviser. I’ll let you know what happens with that later.
I’ve met a few new people over the last year, but Bozeman still feels deserted during the summer. I really want this summer to be different though, so I’m going to try and get out more often, and hopefully meet new friends. My time as a lonely guy who stays at home and watches too much TV is done. It’s time to get out, live life to the fullest, and finally defeat boredom.
May we all be victorious against that bastard.